http://www.coolcave.co.uk/blog/random-musings/to-sleep-or-not-to-sleep.html The life and times of Upekshapriya aka Jeff Cole Tue, 06 Jan 2009 12:29:59 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.0.5 http://www.coolcave.co.uk/blog/random-musings/to-sleep-or-not-to-sleep.html#comment-37 Wed, 20 Sep 2006 22:43:15 +0000 http://www.coolcave.co.uk/blog/random-musings/to-sleep-or-not-to-sleep.html#comment-37 Reading this made me remember when I was part of a Catholic (celibate) religious community in the late 1980's, and I was sleeping on my own I thought, 'I don't want to spend my life sleeping alone' and it contributed to me leaving the community. I still sleep alone... I also remembered that a friend had a recurring nightmare where she would wake up and get ready for work and go out to get the bus and then realise that she was still asleep and it upset her that she had to get up. I find waking up in the morning very difficult and often find myself very anxious in the morning. Maybe because I am an extrovert but also because I still feel like I don't know about Buddhism I want to meditate with others and find it much harder to meditate when alone. I admit it feels slightly parasitic as if I am bathing in the positive meditative experience of others but I felt like meditating with others is better for me. Reading this made me remember when I was part of a Catholic (celibate) religious community in the late 1980’s, and I was sleeping on my own I thought, ‘I don’t want to spend my life sleeping alone’ and it contributed to me leaving the community. I still sleep alone…
I also remembered that a friend had a recurring nightmare where she would wake up and get ready for work and go out to get the bus and then realise that she was still asleep and it upset her that she had to get up. I find waking up in the morning very difficult and often find myself very anxious in the morning. Maybe because I am an extrovert but also because I still feel like I don’t know about Buddhism I want to meditate with others and find it much harder to meditate when alone. I admit it feels slightly parasitic as if I am bathing in the positive meditative experience of others but I felt like meditating with others is better for me.

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